I have a little friend that saved my schedule everyday. This friend reminds me what I need to do, things I need to mail, work training events, doctor appointments (there are always those). This little friend is my planner. It’s a paper planner. I learned of my need for one of these in high school.
I used to forget things all the time. I’ve shown up late and a week early to events more than once in my life. Only in the last four years have I gone back to the planner. Although I’ve always had a home calendar with all things written, I needed something I could take with me. Enter my recent planner obsession.
My best-laid plans still fail.
A few day ago Josie had physical therapy. We signed in, waited a few minutes, and out came the therapist to inform us that we were an hour and a half late.
Thankfully, he had another patient not show up at all. We had our session. Driving an hour to see the PT didn’t turn out bad.
The very next day I wasn’t so lucky. I drove another hour to take Isabel for oral surgery. This time the mistake wasn’t my fault. They informed me that we were a week early when I know that I didn’t schedule it on that day since I am scheduled to work then.
Isabel wasn’t too sad about it. She hasn’t been looking forward to the surgery. I for one was not excited. I could think of nothing but the fact that I on;y came to town for this. I wasted two hours of my life driving for nothing. Nothing. I was so upset by this mistake. I have so little “extra” time in my life right now. Shall I mention how disrupted school was because of this?
Driving home I was reminded that I’m impatient. God is always reminding me of this in His gentle way.
He reminds me that I need to release control. I need to relax. He whispers to me to let things be. To rest. His soft prodding compels me to sabbath. I’m so task-oriented. What I took from the hour drive on the way home was the promise of his presence.
He’s there when I’m checking things off my list. He’s there when I’m sharing moments with the kids. Still, He makes himself known during a scary call at work. He’s there when I royally mess up. He gives me victories through his grace.
His promises never fail.
He promises to never leave me or forsake me.
He knows that plans He has for me to strengthen me and prosper me. To give me a hope and a future.
He is with me, even to the ends of the Earth.
I know these truths. These are the thoughts and verses that come to mind when life seems overwhelming. Life is so hard, and busy, and tiring. God is so easy, and still and restoring.
Our lives aren’t meant to be flawless. The Holy Spirit guides and directs us the The Father through all situations, if we are keen to listen. Do you need to hear this now? I know I do. I constantly need the reassurance that I’m not stepping out-of-place in my walk.
I thrive on knowing that patience is being worked in me through all the hurdles that come my way on this race of life.
I rest and refresh in the promises of God.
Just when I am at the peak of frustration and inconvenience, God paints a rainbow across the farm. Our happy place of the world that he has provided so well for us. The peace of coming home after a day’s travel to see the reminder of all that hope that is in Him, works just a tad more patience in this wild heart of mine.