Oh, my! I’m one tired mama. Since January I have worked full-time, while still homeschooling the kids. My husband has been patiently awaiting a permanent place at UPS after working the holiday season. He’s been painting houses and doing side jobs for the time being. Okay, we’re both tired. In a nut shell, it’s been a tough season.
It’s been a long hard season in fact. Sometimes I have thought that everything that could go wrong has. We have suffered loss. We have had our marriage under attack, financial devastation, career change that led to months of unemployment- which led to mortgage debt. I was wrongfully fired from a coffee shop job just as things were looking up financially. We’ve been through it! Just when are about to get a drink of refreshing water, it seems someone kicks the bucket over. Why is everything SO hard!
Before you completely check out and stop reading, there is a point to my unloading. I have grown tremendously in the past year. The season of trials has proven a great season of lessons learned. It’s a well-spring of spiritual opportunities and assessment. I understand just a little more about God’s grace and forgiveness. I have a clearer picture of what it means to run the race set before me. This race has felt like it would kill me. I’ve been at the end of my strength, dying of thirst, ready for the demand on my energy and exertion to end, but God’s grace has furthered me down the path a bit more.
Friend, have you been down a path like this? One that makes you re-think all that you knew or believed? A path speckled with hurdles that look so much bigger than what you can handle? You are not alone. In fact, the more I feel brave enough to honestly share my own struggles, the more those around confide in me their own battles. I’m learning that people are afraid to share that they aren’t perfect and don’t have “it” all together, but it’s a fact! With a determined heart I follow Christ. When I want to give up and get away from my problems, I pray for Him to be the strength I need. Join me, won’t you?
But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.
I signed up for a race, and I aim to finish it. I’ll be ragged and disheveled by the end or I’ll get my runner’s high. Knowing myself, I’ll likely be crawling to the finish line- perhaps an ambulance escort. I decided to follow Jesus, and there is NO turning back. I’ll get there. How about you? When life gets hard and every step is uphill, What verses do you cling to? Be encouraged. HE is our strength.