I’m so sick of myself! I say that in the least self-loathing, self-centered, depressed way possible. But really, I am. Ever since I became a Christian fourteen years ago, I have heard people say that all you need is a humble spirit and a teachable heart. You read your Bible, go to Bible studies, say your prayers, love others, serve others. Eventually you will become more like Him. I find that defeating.
Think about all the work that list entails. Overwhelming. If you get married you are then to be a good and loving spouse. Serving your spouse when they are undeserving, and being okay with whatever they say and do with no bad attitudes. Be in the perfect frame of mind. Live life fully in the Spirit.
Do all this while dancing around with a smiling on your face. Singing praises to God in all situations.
Now have children.
Multiply the Earth with a quiver full of arrows.
Now, be always giving and loving. Nurture those babes with the fear of the Lord. Direct them in the ways they should go all the days of their lives. Read Proverbs 31 and be that person. Forever. Motherhood is always.
Really? We don’t need to work our way to being a person who reflects the image of God? We are supposed to help the poor, serve our families, teach our young ones, volunteer at church, keep our houses orderly, cook wonderful healthy meals, all while having a patient attitude even when the kids that are a blessing from God are smearing poop on the bathroom floor. Even when your spouse who was hand-picked by God hurts your feelings.
Take it Christian women. You can choose to make the best of all things in your life.
This is all partly true. The missing piece is this: “I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me.”
How have we become exactly like the Hebrews and not realized it? We want Jesus as enough, and we want to be perfect super women also. If we’re strong in our life who is it that’s weak? Christ, right?
When we’re weak He is strong. I seem to forget this all the time. I know this in my head, but in reality, I fail to remember that Jesus is ALL I need. He is sufficient always!
Do you need to remember this too? You cannot do life on your own. You weren’t meant to. Christ wants your humility, not your strength.
I was recently given a book by my dear and sweet friend. I read the preface three times before I could read the first chapter. The book is Hinds Feet in High Places by Hannah Harnard.
As I read the following bit, I knew that all the head knowledge I’ve gathered up in Bible studies and life and devotional time wasn’t sinking into the reality of my path here and now.
“But the High Places of victory and union with Christ cannot be reached by any mental reckoning of self to be dead to sin…”
What? I can’t choose to be dead to my sin? I don’t have the ability?
“…or by seeking to devise some way or discipline by which the will can be crucified.”
Reading my Bible everyday and going to church and going to Bible study, and serving and being a patient (yeah right!) mother, and hosting Jesus Birthday parties for all the neighborhood kids, and NOT doing things I shouldn’t doesn’t count? *MIND BLOWN*
“The only way is by learning to accept, day by day, the real conditions and tests permitted by God, by a continually repeated laying down of our own will and acceptance of his as is it presented to us in the form of the people with whom have to live and work, and in the things which happen to us.”
Ummm. Read that again!
“Every acceptance of his will become an altar of sacrifice, and every such surrender and abandonment of ourselves to his will is a means of furthering us on the way to the High Places to which he desires to bring every child of his while they are still living on earth.”
She goes on the explain that the lessons of the book are a journey to accepting grief and pain and triumphing over evil ect.
Seriously. Do you know what she stated to be true? In your heart? In your life? In the way that you live? I think I missed something along the way. I truly believe that God’s Word is true. I know it’s by His strength, in His Spirit, by His will, for His glory.
What I’m really trying to consider here is that I must accept every thing that happens as an oppurtunity to humble myself, and by God’s grace and mercy accept the fighting kids as tools to sharpen my patience. I am set on thinking of disorder that drives my recovering OCD mind crazy, as a way for God to instill his order in my heart.
I am forever and always until Jesus comes, going to be struggling. I am eager for God to work into me a heart and Spirit that shines His light into darkness.
What if my life brought others to knowledge of Him? That won’t happen if I’m complaining about how someone built an awesome thing inside our house and sanded it inside our house. It won’t happen if I pretend to be strong when something is hard. Honest humility. We are to bear one another’s burdens, You get the point right?
I have had plenty of opportunities to accept His will in my life recently. Each time, I’m reminded of this passage. My only real job as a Christian is to act on those opportunities. Sometimes that looks like scrubbing my neighbor’s house because that’s how they need to hear the gospel. Other times it looks like NOT freaking out on kids and being humble and loving. Choosing to accept the challenges they throw at me as an oppurtunity to teach instead of punish.
It’s not going to be easy, but I am so excited to start letting Him work his will in my life. I’m also excited to allow his will instead of impose my own. Are you with?