I have heard comments over the years about “A women’s attitude sets the tone of the house”, “If mama ain’t happy- ain’t nobody happy”. I think you all can relate to such sayings. Today I have
learned relearned this truth. I will interject that if you are the main caregiver this applies to you. Male or female. As I have mentioned, I am supposed to be “off my feet” for another 24 hours. What this means in our house is that Nick has been doing things like cooking a little and dishes, getting up when kids need something ect.
I can tell that since he is not used to doing these duties (often at the same time- multitasking is not in a man’s nature) frustration is happening quickly. I don’t say this to put him down, but merely to prove a point…to myself. As the person hearing commotion of children fighting and asking for things constantly while an adult is trying to complete a task…I know for a fact that this is exactly how I sound too. I think I have set the standard of what is acceptable to lose patience on, in regards to children. Eye opener. I sound like a nagging, impatient mom who does not enjoy her kids as she should, and wants desperately for them to sleep and read at certain blocked out times. He didn’t sound that bad, but just hearing a hint of it felt like looking at an ugly creature in the mirror. I am the equivalent of Gollum.
A few things come to mind. I’m selfish. I’m impatient. I need a break, but not at the cost of quality time with my kids. My first ministry is my family, and often times I fall very short of serving them to the best of my ability.
I desire to be the kind of mother that listens to her children with a caring ear. I want to be a wife who doesn’t get annoyed if asked to do something as soon as I sit down. I want to go the extra mile even if it costs me time or sleep.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”
I know I can’t do it on my own, but I also know that the Holy Spirit working in me can. I close out this day with high hopes and strong prayers of implementing actions to thoughts. I am in no way under the illusion that from this day forth I will never do wrong again. However, I sincerely yearn to change. The mood in a home can have a great effect on all that dwell in it. My prayer is to set the mood of loving nurture in the humblest and most grace-filled way…by seeking God to direct my heart into submission.