In the middle of an everyone’s crying moment (while still wearing my PJ’s– which I still am), caught in the middle of “I’m going to lose it” and “I’m so blessed to have such great children” I was reminded of a story. I never completely understand why these reminders come at such times, but they often do. The Lord is so kind and gentle to quietly remind me of, me.
I wasn’t alwayS the “Jesus Freak” that I am now. No, no, no. Completely the opposite in fact. I was a Jesus opposer. It was the dumbest thing I could think of. There was certainly no God, and I was convinced. It’s ironic, really. Here I am 10.5 years later a pastor’s wife!?:) I answered a question July 26, 2000. “Who do you say that I am?”
Let me explain, before I explain.
I am a nerd. A big one. I love to research. If I wonder about something– How to doorknobs work? How many people live in Rhode Island? Why don’t people invent something so toilet covers don’t loosen? ect.– I find out the answer. I still don’t know the answer to the last question…anyone?
When I wanted to know the “meaning of life” I researched. It started out with science, then philosophy, until it ultimately lead to the Bible. Where better to research than the library right? I checked out every movie available on the Bible, Jesus, and religion. I actually watched them. All 15 or so. I was still confused. Maybe even more confused than when I set out. I did have options about who Jesus was. A teacher, a prophet, a nice guy who lived long ago, a myth, a fraud.
Then I heard it. The call to come. I answered. Ultimately, I answered the most important question of my life. I had ideas about what everyone else thought of Jesus, but I had to answer that question for myself. I answered, “Lord.”
Here’s the story that kept running though my mind today in the middle of a near breakdown.
“And it came to pass, as he was alone praying, his disciples were with him: and he asked them, saying, Whom say the people that I am? They answering said, John the Baptist; but some say, Elias; and others say, that one of the old prophets is risen again. He said unto them, But whom say ye that I am? Peter answering said, The Christ of God.” Luke 9:18-20.
What a gift to know Him for who He is. These words spoke peace into my heart today. I hope you are blessed as well.