There’s been a stirring going on in my heart lately.  A stirring to grow, to appreciate more, and to enjoy with less seriousness this life I’ve been given.  I finally finish the book On Being a Servant of God and now I’m ready.  We’ll face so many unknowns in the coming years, but this I know.  Nothing should bring me more joy than serving Jesus.

This certainly starts in my home.  I’ve mentioned before that I firmly believe that just because I’m home doesn’t mean I’m not working.  I am.  Not just taking care of kids, but being a frugal, hard worker.  My conduct here is to be just as it would with an employer.  I’ve lacked.

First it was being tired (pregnancy), then I was having back pain, then I was suffering from migraines, and before I knew it I just was being lazy.  One of the last thing I read in the above book was, “If you pamper yourself every time you don’t feel good, you’ll end up doing less and less and eventually will do nothing.”  Ouch.

“When He was dying on the cross, our Lord was never more in the will of God; yet His body certainly didn’t feel good.  I think of that when my arthritis bothers me.  What’s arthritis compared to nails being driven through your hands and feet?”  Double ouch.

It’s time for me to stop having pregnancy, headaches, and gallbladder attacks stop me from being joyful in ministry.  If it’s going to happen anyways, I might as well be useful and loving to my family through it.  Jesus wasn’t focused on Himself while He was dying, He focused on the will of the Father.  His calling.

Have a great weekend.  Happy Valentines Day.  May His true love change you forever.

3 thoughts on “stirring

  1. Nicole says:

    thanks for that! That booked rocked my world, showed me my complacency. I understand the desire for passion. I want that fire in my bones. Time to go out and get it!


  2. Bethany Johnson says:

    Wow that was very encouraging and challenging. Thanks for sharing your heart because I’ve been crazy lately. Kinda makes me step back and look at reality in a different perspective, and it’s much needed. Especially from Christ’s point of view. Love you… and ouch, ouch, OUCH!



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